An eventful day.
Before I climbed in the bus unintentionally I saw Brian’s butt. (It was fat as it could be noticed through his sportswear.)
Someone perhaps Rob Top said Brian:
-Let the boy sit.
-Derek will come – he said. – Come on Derek.
I didn’t pray for anything.
-You barely got through – Brian said to Derek who sat next to him. God knows what I want. They talked. If I had sat there Brian wouldn’t have talked to me. After no one sat next to Zander, he said:
-Let one of you two sit here.
Referring to me or Elaine G..
-Go sit. – said the Christian in me.
In school, my evident paper had been lost. Outrageous!
On the big break Elaine came next to me and said:
-Nick what are you doing? Why are you shivering?
-There is nothing to do. It’s cold.
-Did you buy food today?
-Why are you interested about me?
-So how come… you haven’t eaten. Buy yourself tomorrow morning before you enter.
My Macedonian written work was 5.
On the start of Logic, I was left sitting alone in the first row and the professor asked me:
-Andrea is gone again?
She said something, after what I dared to say:
-She’s gone on Logic all the time.
I just wanted to be closer to her, showing my ability of making conversation.
Later on the same lesson when Tiffany and Sarah were present the professor said:
-Andrea either didn’t do the test or she didn’t hand it. It’s impossible all the others’ to be there, only hers to be gone. Аnd you Tiffany support her.
-I don’t support her, I’m just saying that Nick never lies. He doesn’t know to lie.
-Ah, he doesn’t. He does, but he won’t. Who doesn’t know to lie?
True, from my individual aspect.
After school, I went to wait and among the people who were passing, a man (in his late thirties or forties) stood up close to me and said:
-Is it cold?
Wow, how great is the feeling somebody to choose you, even though you don’t know him.
-What are you waiting?
In my mind appeared a thought of asking him “Who are you?”
He was kind of smiling.
He was so good and friendly. At the moment I feel that no one has left me a better first impression. I regretted for not asking his name. Before I wrote this I even thought “God if it’s necessary take from me, give to him”. But he seemed happy. He probably has what he wants. That’s how the Christians are. Happy with what God gave them and others they care about. Some people may say: They don’t have a spouse, kids, job, luck, home, money, beauty… but those know that God gave them what they really wanted and will keep giving. Obviously the other people don’t know what these people appreciate. Anyway, I want to spend more time with this good man. I want to see him again. Thanks, God!
While I kept smiling for what someone contacted with me, I noticed John looking at me, and coming towards me with the tall skinny Gypsy friend.
We shook hands.
-Are you OK?
Monkey came and I heard they left on coffee. After just a bit, there they are – coming again – without Monkey.
-Are you OK? – John.
Shaking hands again.
They were occupied for a while aside and:
-Do you know this one?
-Do you know him?
-He’s your neighbour. You know where he lives? Above you. You don’t know your neighbours.
Correct, I think it’s enough if I only know my first neighbours.
John: Will you turn on the heater on?
I was quiet.
-Do you know what a “heater” is?
Heater, lollipop, warehouse, while ink pen. Of course I knew when I have Darryl in my class. But… If I had said yes he would have asked: “What is it?” If I had said no – it would have been a lie. I said:
-Not outside. Inside.
-Аh do you see him? Inside.
The tall someone standing on the lil wall asked me:
-How’s in Zlox?
-How old are you?
I wanted to say fourteen. That’s the first thing that came to my mind.
-Do you have a brother or sister?
-What does your father work?
-He doesn’t work. – and I’m not ashamed to tell it – He is retired.
-How much is his retirement?
-8.000. – I guessed roughly.
To tell you the truth I don’t really care about money. Last time they told me it was that much, now it’s probably higher.
-Does your mother work?
– She does. – John said.
-At Dr. Michael’s.
-Is she a doctor?
-No. She’s a nurse.
They smiled, I smiled too. I guess it’s sex in question. But you tell me the connection. They were smiling because someone will have use or she will use?
-Do you have a girlfriend?
-I can’t find.
-Do you know what you can’t find? – John.
Get ready for this?
-Ah wait, do you jerk off?
The inevitable male question. One year ago, if I was asked this, I would have probably looked at the other side and ignored it. Now, as I don’t do it, as I appreciate it came from somebody who goes to school asked after 3 full years, as I’m more mature, as I’m more experienced, as I’m only afraid from God, I looked down, put a little smile that wasn’t telling much and John said:
-Do you jerk off to your neighbor? Wait who are your neighbours? This one, William’s wife. That has a betting shop.
-Tara. Do you jerk off to her?
-I can’t tell you here.
The other two guys moved to the right.
I needed to answer John.
-Do you jerk off to Tara?
-Just a little.
-It’s not nice. – referring to a God’s law, but he went to the other guys.
-Did he jerk off? – my neighbour said.
-No. … Not three times a day, he can’t do it once.
It passed? How did you react?
Then monkey came (touched my shoulder) and asked me:
-How is it?
-It must be good.
(Derived from notes:)
The guys stood on the little wall, I kept standing the ground. Monkey grabbed me when he was threaten to fell pushed by another guy. Adele passed, I was happy that I was with boys.
In the bus Brian sitting opposite me, touched Chris and told him where to sit. Nick numéro deux? Except that Chris didn’t obey him.
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